The Blame Game
I’m sure you’re nothing like this, but I used to find myself blaming others when I “cheated” during times I was trying to be ultra healthy. Maybe someone in the family brought tempting food into our house that I felt forced to eat or my wife drags me to an event filled with cookies and cakes that I had to eat so I could be polite. Either way, it was rarely my fault that I filled up on sweets, only to regret things later. These moments would domino until I was completely off my healthy lifestyle and back on the couch with a package of Oreos and a tall glass of milk.
On Saturday, my wife took our youngest son to an Easter egg hunt, you know the kind without eggs where they just toss candy everywhere and let the kids go crazy. He went into the fray with a jumbo basket and fought his way back with a good portion of candy bars and treats. When they arrived home, the basket went on the table where I had the pleasure of walking by it over and over. I could have easily grabbed a quick snack and no one would have noticed, but strangely enough, the temptation wasn’t there. It’s like my body has become desensitized to the “needing” of sweets when they are in my proximity. Mentally though, I still register when they are near and my brain tries to remind me of the good times we used to have with them, but that need fades as the impulses move down from my neck.
It’s almost like an out of body experience now where I can see everything going on, but don’t feel a need to participate. I could tell myself that my son wasn’t a bad person for wanting to go get free candy, and that he wasn’t trying to sabotage me by wanting to bring it home. I had nothing to blame him for, because the need to eat the sweets wasn’t there. I don’t want to say this mindset change happened because I gave up sugar and flour for my experiment, but I can honestly tell you that a month ago I would have been turning our kitchen upside down right now to find every last speck of candy in the place. I definitely had an issue with cravings after midnight.
So now my goal is to not feel “put out” by people or places that have sweets hanging about. This experiment has given me the power of choice and being able to choose what I eat and when. I won’t judge others if they want to eat sugary, delicious food. Unless of course they try to throw me off by offering just a small portion that “won’t hurt me”. Then I might get cranky.
What I ate today
Today I hit my water goal for the first time in the past week. Over 100 ounces.
Onward to day 22
I’m sure you’re nothing like this, but I used to find myself blaming others when I “cheated” during times I was trying to be ultra healthy. Maybe someone in the family brought tempting food into our house that I felt forced to eat or my wife drags me to an event filled with cookies and cakes that I had to eat so I could be polite. Either way, it was rarely my fault that I filled up on sweets, only to regret things later. These moments would domino until I was completely off my healthy lifestyle and back on the couch with a package of Oreos and a tall glass of milk.
On Saturday, my wife took our youngest son to an Easter egg hunt, you know the kind without eggs where they just toss candy everywhere and let the kids go crazy. He went into the fray with a jumbo basket and fought his way back with a good portion of candy bars and treats. When they arrived home, the basket went on the table where I had the pleasure of walking by it over and over. I could have easily grabbed a quick snack and no one would have noticed, but strangely enough, the temptation wasn’t there. It’s like my body has become desensitized to the “needing” of sweets when they are in my proximity. Mentally though, I still register when they are near and my brain tries to remind me of the good times we used to have with them, but that need fades as the impulses move down from my neck.
It’s almost like an out of body experience now where I can see everything going on, but don’t feel a need to participate. I could tell myself that my son wasn’t a bad person for wanting to go get free candy, and that he wasn’t trying to sabotage me by wanting to bring it home. I had nothing to blame him for, because the need to eat the sweets wasn’t there. I don’t want to say this mindset change happened because I gave up sugar and flour for my experiment, but I can honestly tell you that a month ago I would have been turning our kitchen upside down right now to find every last speck of candy in the place. I definitely had an issue with cravings after midnight.
So now my goal is to not feel “put out” by people or places that have sweets hanging about. This experiment has given me the power of choice and being able to choose what I eat and when. I won’t judge others if they want to eat sugary, delicious food. Unless of course they try to throw me off by offering just a small portion that “won’t hurt me”. Then I might get cranky.
What I ate today
- Smaller than usual portion of eggs and sausage. I’m using some shredded Colby Jack now because I was getting burned out on sharp cheddar. This was my quick meal before heading off to the gym for the fourth time. I’m halfway through my workout goal.
- A banana upon returning from the gym. This is strange because I’m typically an Apples kind of guy, but this month I haven’t really eaten them too much. Bananas seem to be where it’s at for me.
- A fresh batch of taco meat and a jumbo taco salad for lunch.
- Dinner was bratwurst with a large side of diced sweet potatoes, mushrooms, and onions. I picked out the mushrooms, because I’m not into fungus.
Today I hit my water goal for the first time in the past week. Over 100 ounces.
Onward to day 22
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